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Well Mother's day was not as bad as I expected it to be. I have to give credit to my hubby for making it special. He bought me some flowers and a gift and took me out to breakfast. Sure it was hard sitting at breakfast surrounded by families all celebrating their moms. I didn't even get to celebrate my mom since she's far away. I had a good time. I had a really good time with the hubby and I didn't hurt, which was nice.

The weather was gray just like it was for Easter but I didn't let it get to me. Instead I decided to bake. We had tons of strawberries on the verge of not being good anymore so I decided to bake a strawberry pie. Well I couldn't have finished the day off any better than with a slice of my strawberry pie. It was delish and put a smile on my face.

Today was Monday and that means back to work, where did my weekend go? Surprisingly I'm doing fine. I dropped the coffee today. Shocker, and I survived without a headache! Amazing stuff. So far so good with my daily herbs, vitamins and temping. I haven't missed a thing which quite pleases me. I just have to keep thinking about the end result and where I'm going and why I'm doing all of this.

Yesterday I was reflecting and truly hoping and praying that this will be my last childless mother's day. I know I knew this already but somehow yesterday reinforced this even more. I want to be a mom so bad! So so bad! I can't even explain why I have this urge, this need so badly. I'm so full of hope right now, so please don't let me down.
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4 comments:

ADSchill said...

We all wish that the next Mother's Day will bring a baby. I am hoping this path works out for you and you can become the healthiest version of yourself possible.

Wishing you the best.

MissC

Cyndi said...

Thanks MissC. That's what I told DH, if anything at the end of six months we will be the healthiest versions of ourselves.

Diana said...

Ahhhh Im glad your Mother's day wasn't hard for you. It was horrible for me this year!! I literally was like a zombie for a whole week and cried myself to sleep every night. Girl, it's hard going through infertility and then all of a sudden, it hits you. I'm new to blogging so I'm really hoping this will help me out a bit. :) and yes.. let's hope this is our last Mother's day childless. :) take care!

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Cyndi said...

Diana welcome! You will really enjoy this outlet. It's helped me a lot. I can live a semi normal life knowing I can come on here and dump all of my feelings. IF is not fun, it's hard to be this person and live this life.

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