Here I am . . . 27 and no where close to the person I thought I would be at 27. I'm glad I'm not! I thought I would own a house by now have most of my kids and just overall have my s*&% together! I don't but in not being that person I've learned a lot about myself along the way.
I kept telling everyone today that 27 will be a good year! I hope it will be THE year! I'm sure most of you know how I feel. Most of the times on my birthday I can't help but feel a little down. It's always a day down memory lane thinking of birthdays and years past. How time flies! I just can't believe how fast 27 years went by. Even though a lot have happened in my 27 years it feels like it all happened in a blink of an eye. That's scary. What are the next 27 years going to look like?
And right there you have my thinking pattern . . . past and future, never focused on the today. So this birthday I focus on today and the person I am today!
I feel pretty good. Over the past year I've made some positive changes. Just in the past several weeks I've made some drastic changes. I'm committed to the Traditional Chinese Medicine plan. I've been on track with the vitamins and herbs, getting acupuncture twice a month and eating better. What was missing the exercise. Today I am happy to report that I am nine days strong into exercising everyday. Nothing too vigorous. I power walk everyday and Mondays are my strength training day! So far so good, but they say it takes three weeks to make a habit so I'm almost halfway there!
I have to admit that I do feel so much better, lighter on my feet, sleeping better. I love it! It's all very empowering.
Work is starting to balance itself out and becoming manageable. On the home front things are flowing too.
So 26 goodbye! You taught me that life is a total of moments in time. I had some awful moments at 26, realization that life doesn't always give you what you want, and the fact that not everything can be controlled. I'm scared of letting go and putting faith into believing that someday, and maybe not soon, I will have my miracle. I know this will happen for me someday. In the meantime I have to try and give this all I have without losing myself in the process.
So let the positive vibes flow ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~this will be MY year!
4 comments:
Happy bday to you.. happy bday to you.. happy bday dear Cyndi.. happy bday to you!!! & many moooooore!! =)
I completely understand when u said that time flies. I will be turning 30 this year and believe me, I had other plans in mind but unfortunately things didn't turn out to be oh so perfect. But like you said.. positive vibes girlfriend!!! this will be UR year!!!
I hope you had a great day today.. u are a beautiful person inside and out. Good for you on taking baby steps for a healthier life! :) Ur my inspiration.. i need to get out and do something myself. Even if it's just take a nice walk. Many blessings to you on another bday. woohooo!!!!
Thanks Diana! When I was all down and bummed last last Friday my acupuncturist told me there's always tomorrow and I don't think I ever took it so literally. I literally started the next day. :-) I really hope I can keep it up!
Thanks for the birthday wishes! You're so sweet!
Happy Birthday!!!!
I loved 27. It was just before we started trying to get pregnant and I had the whole world in front of me. No knowledge of pcos, no infertility, and money!
Now, not so much. BUT, here I am, doing IVF and hopeful again.
Thank you so much for your support and please enjoy your birthday week. You deserve it my dear.
MissC
hi, i just came across your blog and am looking forward to following your journey! happy birthday! :)
i know exactly what you mean...i'm about to be 29 in a few months and by now, i thought i'd have a second baby on the way...and here i am, still ttc our first. i also have a blog about our journey.
you are so right, that infertility teaches us so much and to just live in the moment!
here's to 27 being your year! wishing you lots of luck and sending positive thoughts your way!
maria :)
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